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Sometimes you must get out of people’s way so they can see how they shine. First, I will start off with the ending…”how THEY shine”. Every person walking this green earth and breathing fresh free air has a different purpose, a different purpose, a different aspect nor outlook on life, so the routines on how they live day to day will also be different. What serves one, punishes the other. If my outlook and routines are different, the rooms I thrive and shine in probably won’t provide that same result for the next individual. In order to feel alive, I know I need things to be of a certain unique temperature, I need to adjust the brightness, enhance the tone of sound. I can respect your shine but I am in the process of figuring out what now allows ME to shine, that unique blend that will allow me to feel weightless. As a individual, currently I am piecing together what serves my personality, my goals, and my boundaries. That is exactly where I am in life. Yes, where I am currently at in reality, this position helps me financially but it stifles and drains me in all ways on all levels. That’s my sacrifice that I am faced with every time I just think about it. There are not any bad people here nor are there any wrong doings. We are just not a good match. We can pick each other apart and over analyze one another but that only serves the ego and at the end of the day, I’ll definitely feel as though we are not a good fit to be under the same roof cohabiting with one another. I can not digest the intensity of it all! I can NOT! So maybe it is best I look at other options for myself and create other means of living for women like me in my position. All I can do is be resourceful as I can be and hope for the best but expect the worse, as I follow that mantra when faced with situations.